My book says that I'm supposed to tell my family and friends and ask for their support. I already went through this once...I know who is going to support me and who will not.
I have a co-worker that every time she sees me she asks if I'm on a diet...she is always on a diet...Jenny Craig kicked her out (she's anorexic) I think she's a little nutty, but we have got along okay. I didn't realize how truly damaged she was until recently when she blasted me on an email about a work issue where she cc'ed the whole building! It was ugly. I don't usually have people after me at work; for the most part I'm well liked. There is one lady who has hated me since I started; we are like oil and water...that is just how it is. We fake it and say hi to each other, but recently at work I've just been tired of it, she talks behind my back all the time to anyone who will listen and I got tired of it. After my diet co-worker blasted me the lady that hates me and her got a bit chummy. I've pretty much just decided to stay away from both of them...so there's a little of the drama at work. That's just scraping the surface...there is a lot of weird shit going on...management changes, I'm pretty sure my dean (who I have a love hate relationship with) is losing it. That's kind of upsetting but worse some of the directives that come out of his office scare the hell out of me!
I told two people who tried to support me last time but then got very concerned about me when I started looking sickly that I was going to start the optifast again. They both were like "are you crazy?" I told them I've got a lot of different reasons for why I'm doing it this time and I have a plan for when I lose the weight (something I didn't have before.) They seem to be on board, but we'll see.
I am definitely listening to my inner self more this time around. I know myself better and I know where my trouble spots are when it comes to self talk. I am paying attention to how I eat right now and how John and Michael and my friends all eat. How and why they eat. I'll need that when it's time to go back to food and I will have to eat different.
At your response: That must take a lot of self control to eat all the protein then veg then starch. The starch is so good usually! Doesn't it get tricky when it's like mexican? Chips first and most of the protein wrapped in the starch? How does that work?
I'm learning about moderation. My cousins drink way to much...we had major drama (fist fight and drunk driving at 1am) last time we had girls night. I vowed not to go again. They wanted to go this weekend and I said no. Sis told them its okay to drink but when you have a nice buzz STOP! More does not mean a better buzz...I put that to food...when your satisfied (not full) STOP! More won't make it taste better and you'll just be uncomfortably full AND have to work it off later!
It's been a crazy 2 weeks with Vegas and kid/work drama. I'm actually looking forward to my class this Thursday.
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Unless you do the hiring and firing, nothing you can do about shitty co-workers. Sorry about the drama, and some people just need to be heard...and if you're not going to hear her, she'll make the whole school hear her. She's the one who probably ended up looking dumb.
The protein, carb pattern IS HARD!!! That's mostly why I haven't lost any more weight. The carbs go down easier, and I can eat more of them. I can eat my weight in beans and rice with salsa slopped all over it. BUT, if I eat the insides of a taco first, then go to the beans and rice, I can't eat as much. The protein is harder to break down, so it takes longer to get through the smaller opening in my tummy. The carbs slide right through. Crazy.
I think paying attention to how people who are thin manage their eating habits is good, but then also realizing you aren't them is also good. I mean, Michael...a boy...with a super fast matabilism (screw the spelling) can eat stuff you can't and still stay thin.
You're gonna have to watch how others push away from food when they're done. I could not do that, and even now, sometimes eat too much to where I have to purge the food to alleviate the pain of stuffing too much in my gullet.
Drinking...that's a biggie. Too many calories in a drink! And I'm surprised that your cousins would fist fight! That's nuts!!! Chick cousins? That's really nuts!
I think I've had to adopt this philosophy, and it was hard for me at first: I'm going to eat what I can of what I want, no matter the cost. If I want a taco, rice and beans, I'm going to order/make it, eat what I can and either save the rest for another meal (which let's face it, I never eat because I dislike most leftovers) or just leave it on the plate. If it costs $10 at a restaurant, I'm going to order it. I could just order a side of whole beans, and eat that for $2.50 and be full, but not satisfied.
That's the trick. Satisfaction. When you're able to eat again, what will help you be satisfied?
I'm still floored that your girl cousins fought...about what?
The cost thing is a big thing! If we go somewhere and spend a lot of money on a meal I feel like I should finish it or I'm wasting money. I too never eat leftovers. It was nice when Jonathon and my nephew lived with us because they always ate all the leftovers.
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