Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I figured this was for a seperate entry.

One thing I have been doing is self reflecting.  I've always had a yes problem.  I'm a people pleaser.  This has been sometimes to my detriment.  I'm not blaming anyone but myself.  My cousin made a quiche for a family event once.  I had been on atkins and lost about 20 pounds.  She kept asking to please try her quiche.  I told her I really couldn't because it had flour in it and I couldn't have flour.  She said I made it for you though...I knew in your diet you had eggs and green chile and cheese and I know how much you like green chile.  I felt guilty and I didn't want to hurt her feelings so I ate it.  When you go off atkins it takes 3 days to get back in ketosis and you gain almost 10 pounds of water all at once.

At work I get on committees and say yes to way too many things...to the point where I'm overworked and it would impact my performance if I didn't take it home.  I'm learning to say no.  It's not easy.  I feel like I let people down.

Hopefully I can work on that and my other problem of trying to fix what is not necessarily mine to fix...this includes trying to fix people!

I can say that I've found a new peace at work.  Even thought there are two women (one formally what I would call a friend) now hate me...I'm oddly very okay with it all.  I mean I wish they didn't HATE me...I'd prefer they just didn't like me much, but either way its an okay thing for me at this point.

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