We got our "product" today. It came in the room on a meal cart...how ironic! We did some talking about random stuff. I came away with a few quotes:
"Don't hang yourself just because the rope is free" This pertained to what we were talking about earlier in the blog about buying food and finishing it.
"You can be really full and emotionally empty"
Then we did a fill in the blank "Overeating_____me and keeps me from feeling_____"
The one that fit for me was distracts, fully alive. Let me go further. I have problems with praise and compliments...I have trust issues...food and weight distract me from thinking about why I basically have shame...of what I'm not sure, but I have shame...its why I can't take a compliment, I don't feel like I deserve it...as if I'm unworthy. Not feeling fully alive helps me not FEEL negative feelings. I'm very good at detaching my head from my heart if that makes any sense. I'm so preoccupied with feeling guilt re: food or not losing weight...I'm to distracted to feel. I know it sounds odd, but it fits. I need to figure out what that is all about. I had a problem with compliments when I was thin too, so if I don't deal with it ultimately it will sabotage everything.
So I came home and prepared all my shakes for tomorrow. I'll check in tomorrow and let you know how that is. Until then.
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I left out one very important thing...after class I went and got a burrito from Rubios! No regrets Man! I actually could only eat half of the burrito, but still yay!
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