Weigh in tonight! First time since I began eating food. I'm scared and anxious and I don't know why. I've done everything the way I'm supposed to. I weigh my food and measure with a measuring cup and spoons. I'm drinking the water and the shakes. For some reason I'm just scared! A few epiphanies:
1. I figured out the potassium problem. I have to have 4-5 shakes, food, and 2 soups with soy sauce each day plus take a potassium supplement. My numbers for potassium keep coming back high. I figured it out. It's the damn SOUPS! They have 11% of my daily recommended allowance of potassium in one! I drink 2...then I take a supplement that gives me 100% of what I need! I stopped taking the soup and now I have beef broth. The difference 40 calories less, no carbs and no potassium in the broth. I don't add soy sauce because there is enough in the broth.
2. This plan isn't going to work period. I am addicted to food. I am addicted to sugar and flour. In a week they expect me to go to bread and milk with my veg and meat. I can't let that happen. John says go with the flow, but I know me. There will be no flow. I need to abstain. I must. I went to OA today and just accepted it. So what to do? I'm going to talk to the nutritionist tonight and see if we can revamp this. I have some thoughts, but I figure I will let them go and see what they come up with...isn't that what I paid for? The plan for me is to ultimately follow the curves plan...its not as nuts as Atkins, the caloric intake is 1000 a day (similar to this plan) but more protein and FAR less carbs, flour and sugar from milk and fruit.
3. I need a food buddy. I have an idea if you are willing. I don't know if you have the same problems I do...but I need accountability. There are a few ways I can do it. In OA people send sponsors a list of food they ate. That seems like TMI to me. I was thinking something a little more modified. I have this fitness pal app. and you can add friends. You log what you eat and exercise. I sent the invite to you. This way you can see if I'm going over calorie or not exercising. The other thing and I don't know if you want to do this or not but I think it might be a good thing. When you eat something either that you should not OR you eat something excessively you text me (and I will text you) what it was and how much was. I have a feeling if I have or you have to tell what we are doing we might not let ourselves go there! It's worth a try! What do you think? I need a food buddy, but we are both so busy I may not be able to answer the phone when you are about to eat something. I think we have to think ahead.
So my OA meeting was very insightful. This was the one that does the step study and I think I need that. I need more structure. I liked the class and I plan to go again next week. Figuring out how to eat at work then go on my lunch break to the meeting then going to my class at night is difficult but I need it and I think I will force it to work.
I also think I need to join Curves. I'll be doing the diet plan in the end and I need to go to a place regarding exercise that holds me accountable. It's 3 days a week 30 minutes. I'll just go after work. I can do this and I forget about me the minute I walk in the door. I need to make it a priority. If I'm paying for it AND I make time away from work I think I will do it. It's worth a try.
There it is in a nut shell.
1 comment:
I can definitely try to be your responsive food buddy. Like you said, we're busy, and sometimes I'm in a classroom and can't answer my phone or text, but most classes are only 50 minutes long, but that's a long time when your favorite food is calling your name.
I have that problem too. If I go home before going to the gym that's all she wrote.
Let's give it a try.
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