So I haven't had my period. It's a week late. I'm not pregnant I KNOW that, but I'm still freaked. I don't feel right when I don't have one. It's caused quite a bit of anxiety. So Friday as you know I binged. I had a planned kahlua and coffee and then just LOST it. Popcorn, bread it was a bad scene.
Last night I was home with youngest son ...he is in his room and all I can think about is eating everything in my pantry! I had a piece of choco peanut butter low carb which was within my calorie limit, but after that I was so anxious I thought I would explode! It took all my will not to eat like a nut!
Today I called the psych department and made and appointment with my eating disorder counselor. Soonest appointment is January 18th, but that's okay. I need to work this binge need thing out. I won't binge and purge. I won't let myself purge anymore. I'm going to talk to the program on Thursday and let them know the binge issue and tell them that I'm going into counseling right after I'm off shakes completely but before maintenance. The timing is just luck.
The great thing is this time I have Hubby and you. I had no support last time and I had to quit the program. I feel really good about this. I didn't plan to have this binge urge thing when it was done, but I'm seeing it...I'm catching it and I'm going to try to do something about it.
So that's where I am. How are you?!
1 comment:
It's good that you recognize it for what it is. You sound very confident, knowledgable and not self-deprecating, which is good.
You sure you're not able to get pregnant? Are you "fixed"?
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