Day 72.

I joined a liquid diet discussion board.  Like I didn't have enough to do already!  It's interesting.  I so far have only posted shake recipes and asked for some in return.  I got a english toffee peanut butter shake and a hazelnut mocha recipe.  There is a pina colada shake recipe but I don't know about that one.

Weigh in last night 178.  I'm in the 170's!  So some weird things, that aren't so weird because I've been here and done this, but still.

• I'm freezing!  Especially after a shake...I mean like cold down to the mother freakin bone!  I think I may bring in a blanket or start wearing pants!  CHRIST!  I hate AC!
• I'm hungry (hey that's new) I didn't experience this until I was at 150 last time...I'm hungry every 2 hours.  My stomach actually growls...oh hello tummy long time no hear from!  I actually get hunger headaches.
• Here is the bad one and I think I need to talk to the docs about this one.  I feel faint.  UG!  If I bend over and come up fast LORD HELP ME!  The black starts coming from the sides and I'm looking through a tunnel.

 Hopefully that's not a sign that I'm not getting enough calories.  I don't want to go to the 800 it's thicker and I get strawberry flavor, but it has carbs and there will be hunger cravings with it (worse than now)  I'd like to wait just 10 more pounds before I mention this stuff to the docs.  I know they will put me on the 800.  If I faint like really faint and not just be light headed I'll get on the 800 asap (don't worry I'm not willing to hurt myself just to lose weight).

Sound bites from last night here we go!

• You can never get enough of something you don't need in the first place (this is regarding food, but I think I can put this in place in a lot of areas)
• If happiness comes from food you need to pull back and reassess what makes you happy.
• Check out this book (I've heard of it) When food is love by Geneen Roth
• Yoda quote do or do not there is no try (again in relation to dieting and exercise...just do it basically)
• Accept help...don't be afraid to say :  you know that program I was in where I lost all that weight?  I'm about to undo it all because I can't get a dozen donuts off my mind!
• Consider going to OA after the program (hmmm seems like I'm ahead of the game...of course I only have the books I don't do the meetings because then I'd have a problem!)

I need a food sponsor.

Okay.  That's if for today.  I will have more sound bites for tomorrow.