Weigh in tonight. I'm on my period so I don't expect anything significant. I was weighing myself everyday, but I've stopped that...it's not a good habit to get into (a bit neurotic) I did weigh myself this morning (I will continue to weigh the morning of weigh day) I do this because at night when I weigh myself fully clothed the scale at my class is some times 8 pounds different! That can get discouraging...so I like the number I see in the morning better. Today it said 174. I'm in a size 14, but I've been wearing some of my size 16 clothes. They are loose and comfy. Not the pants just the shorts (the pants are way too big and fall off...yay!) The shorts need to be pulled up occasionally but they aren't as heavy as the pants.
If I keep loosing weight at this rate I may not have lost the amount I set out to lose by the 20 weeks. I think because I'm older it comes off slower. I'm okay with continuing the classes after 20 weeks, but hopefully I won't have to. I do have flabby skin in my tummy region and a little in the arms (there is still plenty of fat in the arm areas) John said if my callanetics don't get rid of it I may need to surgically get it taken off....I'm going back to the butt kicker video! I tried it last week and it hurt to breath for 2 days! Best to get back on the horse though.
I'm really concerned about exercise...I have no drive whatsoever to do it. Occasionally I get on my bike and read and ride for 10 to 15 minutes, but it's only occasionally. I need to find some kind of incentive or accountability measure for that. I want to exercise but at the end of the day I just want to be a blob!
My work stuff has changed dramatically. I'm doing my job, plus the senate, plus the union and now I'm doing a job that I used to do full time...when I transferred to my area I trained someone else to do it and she has managed to FUCK IT UP royally, so I now have it back. Doing 2 full time jobs plus everything else...I don't have time to eat (thank goodness I don't have to right now)
To answer your comment/question no I don't resent my sister for resenting me. It helps me understand her better. She has this guilt thing she lays on me and I'm finally at the age of 41 wising up to it. I'm finally saying nope...not going to own that...that's yours. I've given you examples before but this weekend she did it again at her birthday party. Terry asked me to do the decorations..so I ordered tables/linens/chairs. I picked up balloon centerpieces and mints to put on the tables...that was the extent of the decor. I had the tables/chairs/linens delivered. We never discussed what time I would arrive at the house...the party stated at 3. I called at 12:30 to say I would pick up the balloons at 1:30 and be there at 2...I had to leave that on the answering machine. I arrived at 2 balloons in hand. The tables were set up and mints on the tables (how nice) so I put the balloons on the table. Not much else to do as it was done for me and hubby. I asked sis if she wanted me to make margarita's she said yes, but then didn't really have a whole lot of mixers...I told her I had a bunch at my house from the karaoke parties she should have said something. She then went on this you didn't call kick..."We didn't know when you were coming"...I said I called at 12:30pm but no one answered...I left a message. Her answer: That was too late! We were out at 7:30am and bro in law was saying where I was, she's supposed to be doing this! I didn't feel like defending myself so I simply replied if there was a specific set up time I wish someone would have conveyed that to me when they assigned me the decorations...having all the information makes a lot of difference. In my mind I thought I probably would have asked for a different assignment if this one meant arriving 7 hours early to put 7 tables up in a yard, throw a table cloth over it and sprinkle it with mints. I really hoped she understood how ridiculous the entire thing was, but something tells me it didn't phase her. I was a little offended, but by the end of the night I was over it...it's not my mess (I'm cleaning that up on my own side of the street)...I can't be responsible for hers.
This weight loss slow down thing has got me in a little funk. I think I will measure myself tonight. A lot of times when I'm not losing pounds I'm losing inches.
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Periods. Say no more.
I find that if I don't weigh myself each morning, I don't keep it in my mind what I need to do (or not do) in terms of eating that day. Probably when you start eating again, the neurotic habits will be keeping you on track habits.
8 lbs difference is a BIG difference!!! What's up with that? Maybe they add weight to their scales to make you work harder? rude.
Age. Say no more.
Are you going back to purchasing clothes at the thrift store? I thought that was such a good idea when you told that to me a couple of years ago.
What did you intend to get down to by 20 weeks? I can't remember. You're on to something with the exercise as well. Even 30 minutes of walking a day will jump start your metabolism (not that I can actually speak to this as I have not been to the gym or done the evil video for months). I bet it will be important when you start to eat.
I was thinking about my sister this morning. I didn't realize how much she was involved in my upbringing. I just got glimpses of it in my memory while driving to work and in the shower (ewwww). Big sisters have it rough.
Awesome. Keep up the good work. Be patient with your sister. She does love you, I'm sure..., and your patience might help her realize her issues. Kitty's patience helped me with mine fo sho.
Love ya!
The problem with weighing myself everyday is that some days it doesn't move and when you're not eating anything...that thing NEEDS to move!
8 pounds is a big difference I don't know why it's so off.
I ordered some shorts of ebay. I bought a "lot" basically 3 pairs for like 9 bucks. At this point I have so many clothes from going up and down I'm set, but ya...the thrift store days are coming.
Bras are a bitch right now. I need a good push up bra all the volume has left the girls and so its skin hanging off an implant...if that isn't enough motivation to keep my weight off so I can get that fixed I don't know what is!
I can't remember what my goal was...it was more of a look to be honest. I think it was 150, but on which scale I don't know. I may be 150 on my scale at home because I was 140 last time and it didn't look or feel good at all! Of course that was 140 on their scale, So I guess that made it 132 yikes not with my bone structure.
My sister is like my other mother. I'm trying to find a balance with her, but I'm growing and changing and learning a lot about myself right now. In the end maybe it will help our relationship.
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