Day 77-The sound bites I promised

Exercise keeps the endorphins up that leads (drives) the motivation.  hubby and I walked 3 miles at the lake both Saturday and Sunday.  We were going to walk on Tuesday after work and today...but I'm beat!

Fake it til you make it...she keeps saying that one.

She thinks some of us may have a gluten intolerance.  That can make you coo coo.  Her words.

We talked about owning our feelings...I'll try and recreate the drawing.

	I own it	I throw it away
Positive	(compliment)  THANK YOU	(Compliment) You need glasses
Negative	(You are laid off) You are a bad worker	(You are laid off) The economy sucks and funds ran out.

      

Basically what we hear and tell ourselves when someone says something positive or negative to us.  The two boxes that tend to fill up the positive things we throw away and the negative things we own.

Take note to how you talk to yourself.  Note how it brings you down...how it takes away your joy.

Where did I learn that I don't deserve joy and happiness.

Make a choice to believe the strangers and not believe my mom and sister.  I deserve to like my new body.

Take ownership of the good things in my life.

Be in the moment don't  worry about when I go back to food...enjoy this moment (many people have anxiety about eating right now we just passed the halfway point)

"I was good today"  saying that lets food dictate your feelings.  You feel how you want and choose how you feed yourself independent of your feelings.  

When you decide you deserve goodness you will take care of yourself and only feed yourself good.  Don't feed yourself junk!

Stop talking bad about yourself even if you don't believe it (fake it til you make it)

Grieve what you didn't have.  A loving caring father.  For me I need to feel the grief of not having a father period and grieve that my mom was emotionally unavailable.

So the class was on body image.  We took a test.  The highest you could score was a 36...that meant you absolutely hated your body.  I scored a 17.  So I guess that leaves me indifferent to my body.  I don't hate it...I don't love it...it is what it is.