It's been a series of baby victories. Today will be my 35th day binge free. We do it in cycles (each cycle is 21 days) the psychology is that it takes 21 days to do things before they become a habit. I am on cycle 2, day 14 or as my calendar reads (C2/D14).
Ate more in Vegas, but it was a planned event. I have another one coming up this Saturday in San Francisco. Oddly enough I thought my biggest obstacles would be the kids and my sister...maybe a few work friends. My biggest obstacle turned out to be my sister and my husband. I think because I had a plan and an expectation for the kids and my work friends. My sister (I'm suspecting) changed things up on me and that has thrown me for a loop but I'm rolling with it. Husband was completely unexpected so I'm reeling there, but putting what I learned into action.
My sister...I can't quite put my finger on. Is she competing? Is she asking for help (advice or a listening buddy)? Is she quietly waiting for me to fail? I think it's all! Not to sound paranoid, but she started a juice diet. What's with the sudden interest to quickly lose weight? She started those slim fast shakes when I went to optifast, but it didn't work for her then depression, then the juice diet coupled with what still looks like depression. She has routinely brought up the statistics of people who gain all their weight back and more on the optifast diet. I'm aware of the statistics. We were not just briefed but lectured before we signed up for the fast. I knew if I kept the weight off that I would be in the minority. Her words are supportive. "I'm glad you are really focused on this"..."I think you might actually be able to do this for a while" (that last one not as supportive as the first). I've asked her if she wanted to come work out. "Yes, but not today" Last Friday I called said I had the day off and offered to bring my bike to her to go around the bay. After some serious talking into she agreed to come to the dark side. I don't exercise to lose weight. It's a release for me, but hey bonus is that I'm burning calories! She does not enjoy exercise in any form. But last Friday I think she liked it and later at the thrift store she bought a top to work out in. I think she's coming around!
Husband. HubbyI thought would be my biggest cheerleader. He doesn't know what he's doing wrong because everything is so new for him and it's starting to impact him. A few examples: I only go out 1 time per week for 2 reasons, 1 I have no idea what is in the food and I'm a health nut now. I'll just admit it. 2. I'm trying to watch our finances so we can go to Ireland and Cozumel this year coupled with getting a kitchen. At this rate it's not going to happen if we keep eating out. Another example...comments such as "you're too regimented, inflexible...you're taking things too far, you're excessive, obsessive" My schedule is to try and work out 1 hour everyday. Some of the days we have plans like Friday, Saturday or Sunday. If we do I don't make a big deal about it. Most days I go right after work so it doesn't impact him. Tuesday I go to Zumba at 7:30pm for 1 hour. Wednesday I go to Weight Watchers for 30 minutes and Thursday Maintenance for 1.5 hours. He finally agreed to come with me to the gym after my maintenance class. It was more of "if I want to see my wife I guess I have to go to the gym". In Vegas I brought my health food only to discover we did not have a refrigerator in the room (and so ends our stays at New York New York...hello Mandalay Bay so glad to be back!) My chia seeds, flaxseeds, and probiotics needed to be iced every 8 hours. Our safe closet looked like a Carmen Miranda hat storage space. I'll admit most people smuggle alcohol in coolers up to their rooms not health food. On one of the days hubby drank too much the night before and had a heart stopping breakfast the next day. He promptly found himself ill. I had him there. He said if I'm going to gym with you I should probably eat with you too. I currently cook 2 meals each night...mine and the boys. Now I cook ours and the boy's. Hubby can choose if he wants son's dinner or ours. Last night he chose both :o) No matter! At least he filled up on African Turkey Kebobs, sugar snap peas and whole wheat couscous before having a little bit of son's orange chicken. He's slowly coming to the dark side.
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At least he tries. That's good. Many men would not. Your sister...she's special. I don't even know what to say. I don't know what's better, what your sister does or kitty who lets me make my on mistakes and when I biff it, she says, I thought you might need help with that.
I hope everyone sees that you're trying to make a lifestyle change and not going through a phase.
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