Maintenance began on the 26th. I weighed in at 174. That's 24 pounds higher than my lowest weigh in. When I got there I was one of the thinnest people in the class. It seems we all came off shakes about the same time and were left to struggle through the holidays. Many of us were frustrated.
I was okay. I'm on an exercise routine and I'm eating in a way that is healthy and satisfying. It doesn't fit with the "maintenance plan" but frankly I DON'T CARE! I feel good. When someone mentioned about the cold feeling they had on optifast I interjected with "that was your metabolism...DYING!" the counselor shot me a look, but it was true! We starved ourselves and we wreaked havoc on our bodies...an end to justify the means, but to what end!? To be thin for a moment!? I say no! Something wonderful came out of this experience for me...I learned that my body NEEDS food...not just food but good food. I learned my mind needs food...not just food but food I crave! My body needs to move...not just move but really get out there and when I do that and I let my body have these things I feel awesome! I may not like that little bulge by my hip or under my arm, but that will come and go. I can walk up stairs and not be out of breath! I can ride my bike 17 miles in one night, probably 20 had my iPad not fallen down and that feels so good I can't even put words to it. I don't drink soda anymore at all. I have 2 cups of coffee, green tea and 8 full glasses of water every day. I crave baked sweet potato fries and mango with chili con limon on it!
I think I know what you're asking yourself right now. Why is she even going to maintenance if she has it all figured out? Because I paid for it! I had to pay up front for maintenance and I thought that's what went wrong last time...was that I never went to maintenance. I have to admit I'm learning a lot, but more importantly I'm making this program accountable. I have expectations. I expect them to address the BED issue (Binge eating disorder) that seems to be dormant except after this program 2 out of 2 isn't a bad track record! I expect them to give me my metabolism back! They helped me kill it, now perform a miracle and give it back! Lastly it's another accountability tool and at this point I need all the tools I can get!
Weigh in tonight with all the weight lifting I have been doing I should be up at least 3 pounds.
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Accountability is a big issue. I'm not sure I truly understand those who can be accountable to themselves. It too easy to pull the wool over my own eyes. I make myself gullible.
I wonder how you get the matabolism back? That seems to be a hard thing to do.
With all the exercise you've been doing you are going to gain muscle weight. As long as your clothes fit good, you're good, right?
I'm very happy that you're very happy with yourself, but the balancing act IS difficult.
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