I'm going to see how organized I can be with this. I'm going to try to do the sound bites from class today and the book tomorrow...what may happen is the class one will be big, too big to do in one post so I may continue class stuff tomorrow with book stuff. By the way I am sooooo excited you are literally driving down here right now!? Nuts aye?!
Okay I need to drink more water. 100oz. I thought it was 80 to 104oz (I have no idea what 4oz would add), but that's the number they gave me and I forgot it...I was shooting for 80oz. The counselor said that would explain the 2 pound weight loss last week (that I didn't even know about at that time I only lost 2 pounds!) So now I drink 2 smart waters (33 oz each) plus the 40oz in my shake and I'm there! I don't drink any other water for fear I will flush out my vitamins. I love that smart water its so soft in my mouth! I know weird...if I have to drink anything different I drink distilled with lemon.
Fat + Optifast = gallbladder attack (so if I cheat don't pick a high fat item) YIKES!
Alcohol + Optifast (yes I asked again) = Kidney meltdown. I guess my kidneys are having to work very hard with a total protein liquid diet and alcohol would be no bueno...also I would get drunk on 1 drink then lose my senses and eat...guaranteed.
"I can act my way to better thinking, but I can't think my way to better acting" I guess it's an AA thing, but it makes great sense! Basically stop thinking about it and just do it even if you have no idea what the hell you're doing! Basically fake it until you make it.
"Act as if you don't have a problem with food. If you act like you do it will consume you." It totally did! The last time I got off Optifast its was the only thing I thought about. It was crazy...remind me to talk about binges on a different post.
"Lifestyle change means people, places and things" not sure how to incorporate this yet, but I think I'm getting the people part...I dumped a boat load at work recently and re-selected a new group. I just did an acquaintance inventory...if they had damage I distanced myself...it may be mean, but trust me when I say there are some DAMAGED peeps here.
**Never leave my house hungry again!** No going to restaurants hungry.
Do not dabble in this (not eating/eating thing) ask myself "what issues would I be facing if I wasn't distracted with gaining and losing weight" or "what would I think about if I didn't think about that?" Because weight loss + fat = old familiar problem that distracts me from everything else.
"Learn to eat Sober." I like that one.
Death by 1000 paper cuts, give a little, give a little, give a little, imagine each time you do a little favor or act that you think is "helping" as a paper cut and sooner or later you're bled dry, so you fill yourself with food.
Identifying and communicating needs. This was a class exercise. I literally heard myself say "I need you to tell me what you need!" to my partner...I have a long way to go. Here are some of my needs that I finally identified: love, to feel connected, sex (why deny it?), acceptance, sense of belonging, to feel safe, to have joy, rest, quiet and calm, friendship, acknowledgement, to be valued, respect and I need to be challenged.
"There are no victims, only volunteers"
Hey! That's all the class sound bites. Okay well tomorrow I will try to get the book stuff in and the OA stuff.
4 comments:
Sound bites = notes from class?
Do you find it hard not to drink? I mean water? Do you get thirsty then catch yourself getting a glass of ice water and thinking, "Dang it!!"? I think that would be hard for me.
Is Smartwater conditioned? Or something?
Have you cheated yet? With food or alcohol?
It's funny how the same sayings or similar sayings are different for differnt disfunctions. For example: "Just Do It doesn't get it done." This came from Dante's book ADD Friendly Ways to Organize Your Life. Basically, it means telling a person to "Just clean your room" or "Just get dressed" doesn't help them get the action done. Dante needs lists, a plan, steps, etc to complete the action. Which I guess can be thought of as simplifying things...? But simplifying by over thingking?
But for you, thinking, overthinking isn't good. Interesting.
I find myself snacking most when I'm tipsy. Funny how that's a truism.
But for you,
Oh, and I was excited driving down too!!!
notes from class, yes.
I have not cheated. I tasted a wine and spit it out..I tasted a red pepper dip and spit it out. I tasted a chipotle mango margarita with smoked paprika on the rim and spit it put. The things I have never tried are the ones I want so I taste and spit and that satisfies me.
I can write lists ALL day, but putting it into action is where I fall short.
smart water is distilled with minerals put back I guess. When I'm thirsty I grab something with flavor. Water does not taste good to me. I don't like cold water at all.
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